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2006-08-01 - never sure
2004-12-16 - no more novel
2004-10-30 - Red Sox Nation
2004-08-22 - elephant
2004-08-18 - the time of spiders
2004-08-16 - what Olympians know
2004-06-24 - fake lanterns
2004-06-02 - this is not closure
2004-05-24 - i'm a lemon
2004-05-21 - contempt for the craft
2004-05-06 - Halls of Fame
2004-04-06 - common fucking decency
2004-04-01 - those last few pages
2004-03-23 - popping the cork on lunacy
2004-03-18 - damn this infernal disease
2004-03-16 - frown lines
2004-03-11 - complete and utter boredom
2004-02-26 - brace myself
2004-01-14 - not very pleased
2004-01-13 - icky
2004-01-05 - one of the best gifts ever
2003-12-22 - strong enough to give up
2003-11-19 - i was wrong
2003-11-05 - the disease is me
2003-10-29 - the emotional leash
2003-10-20 - a writer's praise
2003-10-16 - in the playoffs again
2003-10-07 - the healthy me
2003-09-26 - stupid writers
2003-08-27 - stealthy demon traitor
2003-08-14 - thank god it's over
2003-07-12 - i hate my friends
2003-06-27 - baseball in a heat wave
2003-06-09 - i'm the one who pays
2003-06-03 - waiting for the funeral
2003-06-02 - death, guilt, and commencement
2003-05-29 - what's really on my mind
2003-05-19 - the search for adrenaline
2003-05-14 - falling into the bathtub
2003-04-25 - my bundle of selves
2003-04-16 - the return of spring
2003-04-04 - sickness and visions
2003-03-25 - ground zero
2003-03-20 - coworker trauma
2003-03-18 - the government, not the people
2003-03-13 - tired eyes
2003-03-03 - my older sister
2003-02-27 - whatever
2003-02-12 - i'm completely worthless
2003-02-09 - the world has won
2003-02-04 - too tired
2003-01-14 - life is such a hassle
2003-01-13 - i want to go home
2003-01-02 - unexpected Swiss chocolate
2002-12-19 - still getting dumber
2002-12-12 - on writing
2002-12-06 - gift-giving
2002-12-02 - risk of avalanche
2002-11-27 - doing all that I can
2002-11-25 - very busy and not very happy
2002-11-14 - still getting older
2002-11-06 - sad state of affairs
2002-11-05 - the stupidity of everyone else
2002-11-05 - everyone can go to hell
2002-10-29 - medication tribulations
2002-10-25 - anxiety and red mountain dew
2002-10-21 - drug-induced shit
2002-10-11 - time for a change
2002-10-04 - school sucks
2002-09-25 - success vs. failure
2002-09-23 - the death of the American Dream
2002-09-11 - refusal to wear a ribbon
2002-08-29 - not helping much
2002-08-28 - i deserve a promotion
2002-08-23 - perhaps, but probably not
2002-08-22 - too much and too little
2002-08-21 - the 600 club
2002-08-09 - nobody's had it worse
2002-08-08 - too much adrenaline
2002-08-07 - addicted to evil
2002-07-30 - resignation
2002-07-29 - please go away
2002-07-26 - Schopenhauer
2002-07-23 - fizzling
2002-07-22 - i don't care
2002-07-19 - shittiest week ever
2002-07-16 - busywork
2002-07-15 - debilitating bursts
2002-07-11 - publishers and mood disorders
2002-07-08 - my first van Gogh
2002-07-01 - disconnected again
2002-06-25 - intelligent art
2002-06-24 - catching up
2002-06-10 - National Enquirer photos
2002-05-09 - the horror continues
2002-04-18 - documentary on depression
2002-04-12 - lost puppy
2002-04-03 - names and faces
2002-04-01 - eighteen hours
2002-03-21 - dolls and duplicity
2002-03-07 - head rush
2002-03-07 - like a vegetable
2002-02-27 - singing tonight
2002-02-25 - blips, bombardment, and blackness
2002-02-23 - how long to go on
2002-02-13 - panic and The Simpsons
2002-02-04 - small town kids
2002-01-29 - prostitution
2002-01-22 - compounded stress
2001-11-30 - coming together
2001-11-26 - within the surrender
2001-11-12 - existence of an afterlife
2001-11-09 - drowning in debt
2001-11-06 - it's all the same
2001-10-19 - i don't hate my job
2001-10-09 - a damn good thing
2001-10-03 - ordinary daydreams
2001-09-28 - rejection
2001-09-26 - vacuous emptiness
2001-09-19 - sensationalistic journalism
2001-09-11 - war zone
2001-09-10 - pressed for time
2001-09-04 - with my guardian angel
2001-08-14 - bloody mess
2001-08-07 - infinitely painful
2001-08-06 - getting along
2001-08-02 - rose petals
2001-08-01 - useless pile of shit
2001-07-30 - cool as hell
2001-07-23 - up to the challenge
2001-07-19 - interpretations of love
2001-07-16 - better or worse?
2001-07-13 - pride and prejudice
2001-07-09 - surrealism
2001-07-05 - too small in here
2001-07-03 - evil smoker
2001-07-02 - horizon
2001-07-02 - shaking in terror
2001-06-28 - nothing out of something
2001-06-24 - back from vacation
2001-06-15 - DisneyWorld
2001-06-12 - peons
2001-06-11 - voices in my head
2001-06-07 - so many things
2001-06-05 - medication and hockey
2001-06-04 - stuck
2001-05-31 - decision-making process
2001-05-29 - Angelfire killed my friend
2001-05-28 - the space program
2001-05-27 - not the only one
2001-05-25 - Chutes and Ladders
2001-05-23 - the hardest thing in life
2001-05-21 - the sound of silence
2001-05-19 - cleaning out the past
2001-05-17 - fucked up dreams
2001-05-15 - what the fuck?
2001-05-14 - i'm too normal
2001-05-11 - Timothy McVeigh
2001-05-11 - people scare me
2001-05-10 - disillusionment
2001-05-06 - i wonder...?
2001-05-04 - waves of torment
2001-04-30 - problem with authority
2001-04-28 - humanity is a mistake
2001-04-26 - strung up
2001-04-25 - life is not boring
2001-04-22 - too grown up
2001-04-20 - happy anniversary
2001-04-17 - the real world
2001-04-12 - circular pathways
2001-04-11 - suicide is not selfish
2001-04-10 - moments of hell
2001-04-04 - memory is my enemy
2001-04-02 - mid-life crisis
2001-03-31 - cinnamon bun
2001-03-29 - death and lost teeth
2001-03-28 - Boycott Angelfire
2001-03-26 - fame
2001-03-24 - playing ping-pong
2001-03-23 - apathy
2001-03-20 - death is not enough
2001-03-18 - i find myself dead
2001-03-16 - housebound
2001-03-14 - a thousand miles away
2001-03-12 - moments in the past
2001-03-07 - sarcophagus
2001-02-28 - looming scythe of death
2001-02-27 - silver-screen rogue
2001-02-26 - fuck psychiatry
2001-02-23 - pain in the brain
2001-02-23 - the genius of insanity
2001-02-16 - mindless assumptions
2001-02-14 - too deep for words
2001-02-13 - inner forearm
2001-02-11 - i'm tired
2001-02-08 - emptiness
2001-02-07 - the vampire slayer
2001-02-06 - volcanic lava
2001-02-05 - burning my eyes
2001-02-03 - the gift of life
2001-01-31 - identity crisis
2001-01-30 - hell on earth
2001-01-29 - dancing with Death
2001-01-28 - withdrawal fucking sucks
2001-01-26 - no running away
2001-01-25 - without an author
2001-01-24 - agenda of death
2001-01-23 - hate-mail
2001-01-21 - crossing the line
2001-01-20 - the creature descends
2001-01-19 - hoping for comfort
2001-01-18 - baseball and existentialism
2001-01-17 - placing the blame
2001-01-16 - rebellious phase
2001-01-12 - words that last
2001-01-11 - religious massacre
2001-01-10 - Rob
2001-01-02 - Cast Away
2000-12-21 - death and long walks
2000-12-20 - free guns for everyone
2000-12-18 - human vs. bull
2000-12-18 - sleep
2000-12-14 - i don't belong
2000-12-13 - Christmas is shitty
2000-12-12 - blood-soaked Kleenex
2000-12-11 - strapped into the ride
2000-12-08 - contemplating suicide
2000-12-07 - things i must deal with
2000-12-06 - monsters of sickness
2000-12-05 - dead fish
2000-12-04 - enough is enough
2000-12-01 - understanding death
2000-11-30 - do people enjoy life?
2000-11-27 - the fucked up people
2000-11-22 - obligation hurts
2000-11-21 - what i've learned
2000-11-20 - blackness is my home
2000-11-16 - shivering
2000-11-15 - three years max
2000-11-14 - trapped inside a cage
2000-11-13 - bleeding in the bar
2000-11-10 - condemned or not?
2000-11-08 - crime scene
2000-11-07 - birth order rebellion
2000-11-06 - irritated to death
2000-11-05 - goddamn video tapes
2000-11-03 - story of my downfall
2000-11-02 - i am completely empty
2000-11-02 - random racing thoughts
2000-11-01 - magical hangover
2000-10-31 - not taking the meds
2000-10-30 - couldn't wait for the seance
2000-10-30 - all souls' day seance
2000-10-28 - random bunch of events
2000-10-27 - damned for an eternity
2000-10-26 - i don't want a plan
2000-10-24 - teachers are stupid
2000-10-23 - getting really fucked up
2000-10-21 - middle school
2000-10-20 - a memory scarred
2000-10-19 - the oddity of me
2000-10-18 - Krista in Wonderland
2000-10-18 - defending my niceness
2000-10-17 - the antithesis of life
2000-10-17 - can't handle stress
2000-10-16 - cablevision hell
2000-10-14 - friday the 13th from hell
2000-10-13 - back to the old haunt
2000-10-12 - alive for everyone else
2000-10-11 - what do i need?
2000-10-10 - just plain confused
2000-10-06 - killer curiosity
2000-10-06 - psycho obsessions
2000-10-05 - i need a good halloween
2000-10-04 - justifying philosophizing
2000-10-03 - how do you live?
2000-10-03 - i'm gonna take you with me
2000-10-02 - what is it for?
2000-10-02 - you're the reason
2000-09-29 - stuck between worlds
2000-09-28 - paranoia sucks
2000-09-27 - i feel pretty good
2000-09-25 - too much going on
2000-09-22 - i feel like shit
2000-09-20 - fucking cry already
2000-09-19 - very lonely
2000-09-18 - home alone
2000-09-15 - darwin and paperweights
2000-09-14 - compassion and killers
2000-09-12 - an unquiet mind
2000-09-08 - the art of conversation
2000-09-07 - losing my mind
2000-09-06 - so what?
2000-09-05 - why do people smoke?
2000-08-31 - what's fun and what's not
2000-08-30 - the swimming pool
2000-08-28 - what's going on?
2000-08-28 - oh, sadness is goodbyes
2000-08-27 - the shittiest thing ever
2000-08-26 - what was i thinking?
2000-08-26 - i'm drunk
2000-08-25 - i think i'm broken
2000-08-25 - not forgotten
2000-08-23 - reaching for columbine
2000-08-23 - my second childhood
2000-08-21 - stuffed animals
2000-08-18 - Romeo and Juliet
2000-08-16 - sinking feeling
2000-08-15 - THAT'S NOT OKAY!!
2000-08-15 - oh yeah, i really did cut
2000-08-12 - drugs made me stupid
2000-08-12 - toilet paper in my desk
2000-08-12 - you know what i hate?
2000-08-11 - i want to be famous
2000-08-11 - no peace for the wicked
2000-08-10 - i lost my shadow
2000-08-09 - look at me: i'm normal!
2000-07-21 - the nature of being human
2000-07-18 - Psychobitch fucking loses
2000-07-13 - a lotta damn rambling
2000-07-11 - Introduction to Psychobitch

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