“That night she sat for hours, too numb even to drink, teaching herself to breathe in a vacuum. For this, oh God, was the void. There was nobody who could help her. Nobody in the world. They were all on something, mad, possible enemies, dead.”
-Thomas Pynchon, The Crying of Lot 49
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2003-01-14 4:21 p.m. Today, I mailed the title of my car to its new owner in Phoenix. This should be just about the last bit of responsibility I have to take for that damn car. I would just like to take a moment to say that I never, ever wanted to buy a car until I was talked into it by people who didn’t understand my interests or instincts in the matter. I should always listen to my instincts in matters like this. I wanted to lease. But no, leasing is bad. Now, I have somewhere between three and four thousand dollars on credit card bills all because of that damn car (although it was very pretty and I’ll miss being able to point to it and say it’s mine). If I had leased a car, I wouldn’t have had to pay nearly what I paid for my car in the long run, and I wouldn’t have had to deal with this whole selling the car bullshit. It’s such a hassle I didn’t need, not to mention the several months where I had to wake up everyday to move the car and then go home from work every night to move the car AGAIN because neither the daytime parking nor the nighttime parking allowed me to park the car there for twenty-four hours at a time. It was one big, giant hassle, and I do not like hassles. Now that the car is gone, I feel a tiny twinge of regret every once in awhile because I’m reminded that I can’t have the car. I also don’t like being told I can’t have something. Let’s remember, though, that none of this would’ve been a problem if I had listened to my instincts in the first place and gone with a lease. The longer I go without the car, though, the less I miss it. And I REALLY don’t miss paying $400 a month for something I never used. Maybe now I can pay off the credit cards. Sigh.... Life is such a hassle. Thankfully, my class is over for the semester and I have a few weeks off before starting into the new class. Work wasn’t too bad today, and I got a bucket of cookies for 20 cents from CVS at lunchtime. I don’t care if they’re leftover Christmas cookies. I’ll eat cookies even if they’re stale, and 20 cents just can’t be beat. And tonight is also Buffy night, so I should have a nice relaxing evening of watching Buffy, playing with the bunny, unwinding with Rob, and eating 20-cent cookies. So I guess life isn’t ALL bad, just mostly. |